Monday, November 10, 2008

Breath Deeply



Dear Mo was a true-blue, super-duper trooper today at the vets. She surprised everyone, by being so good, and so still through all of her testing, that there was no need to give her any anesthesia, and we were able to come and get her earlier then they had expected. I am very proud of her, as I know that she was very afraid, (resulting in a few accidents, but that is to be expected.)

Unfortunately the x-ray showed a large mass, and the vet is 85% sure it is cancer. He also concurred with my own research saying that would give us only another 3 to 6 months with our sweet baby girl. Suffice to say that I have cried a lot of tears today.

To be 100% sure of it being cancer, we would have to take her to a specialist for more tests and procedures, but everyone, including Mo's doctor, felt that it was best to just let this take it's own course of action, making each day the best it can be for her, as nothing can really be done for this type of cancer, and her quality of life would suffer if put through extra testing, and treatment. The last thing that I want is for Molasses to suffer.

Interestingly Mo has been the picture of health the last few days, and all of her symptoms have gone away... I like to think it is from all the well wishes, prayers and good energy that everyone has been sending. Thank you and keep it coming, as the vet said that if we can keep her going past the 6 month mark, then there is a good chance that she was actually in that other 15%, and the mass isn't cancer. He said that he didn't want to give me false hope, but I will take any and all hope that I can get.

In the midst of my tears and sadness, I have been filled with tremendous gratitude for all of the days that I have been so blessed to spend with Molasses BooDill, and I will be profoundly grateful for each more day I get to spend with her. I assure you, I have never taken her for granted, and often marvel at how such one little being can bring such enormous joy to all who meet her.

I also assure you that she will be getting lots of extra belly rubs and snuggle time, and almost anything else her little heart desires. Please continue to keep her in your thoughts from time to time, and hopefully she will defy the odds.

Thank you to each and everyone of you who took the time to comment or to email. Your kindness is deeply appreciated, and will not be forgotten.

18 comments:

Cicada Studio said...

What a little trooper. I'm sure she is channeling your strength. In the end what she needs most is what you're giving her: love. Sweet thing... your best pal... your shadow... how nice you have this time (and possibly more!) together. You've been all about the "hope" lately, keep it going. Hey, it worked before... :)

Fer said...

Dear dear girl! I'm sure she knew that everyone at the vet's was there to help her, it always amazes me how much they know.

At least you have comfort in the knowledge that you've done your best by her, and I'm sure she'll repay you in kind.

:o)

Mrs.French said...

I will continue to send the positive energy her way...you are handling this in such a kind an gracious way...thinking of you deary...I am keeping my fingers crossed that she is in that 15% you speak of...xxoo

Janis said...

Oh Victoria, I am so very sorry. In reading your posts I can feel the strong bond of love that you and Mo share. I will keep you both in my daily prayers. XOXOXO

nicolette said...

I hope it’s the 15% change!

I’m sure our dear pet friends are able to feel our strength.

I can imagine so many love her. Only looking at her pictures makes me fall in love with sweet Molasses.

Take care! I will be thinking of her and your family!

Hugs and cuddles!

Hey Harriet said...

Oh I'm so sorry. My thoughts have been with Mo (& you of course!) & I was hoping so badly that everything was ok. So much so that I was afraid of popping in here on the chance of the tests not being good. Things seem so unfair sometimes. I'll certainly keep hoping things will be good for Mo. 15% isn't a really small percentage. There's still a good chance Mo will beat this I think. Hugs to you & Mo! Mo is so very lucky to have you. And I know how much joy & love she brings to you. There's lots more love & joy to be shared between you! xo

Janis said...

I woke this morning with the two of you on my mind and remembered that those were the exact same odds I was given a few years ago in a cancer scare. Thank God, I was in the 15% and I'm praying that Mo is too. I remember your kind support last month when I most needed it and send love and prayers this morning. God bless.

Jackie said...

So it was worst case secenario after all. So sorry.
You and I are both caring for sick dogs who's days are numbered. I am dreading Willow 'losing her legs'and as she is 13 I feel we are in the closing months/days/ of our time with her.
I'll be thinking of you.
And Molasses BooDill.
x

High Desert Diva said...

Keeping you and Molasses BooDill in my positive thoughts....hugs....

Jaimee said...

So sorry to hear about Mo...I'm sure she's loving all the extra belly rubs and all those positive vibes truly do make all the difference...you're in my prayers.

jacquie said...

oh victoria, i'm so sorry this is happening with mo. our dogs are like our children. my hope is that he will live happily for the rest of his days with you. give him a snuggle from me!

T.Allen-Mercado said...

Mo remains in our thoughts and well wishes. It is truly remarkable the gift of unconditional love we get in turn for providing our animal companions with treats, shelter, belly rubs and hugs. It is unrivaled. (hugs)

Bascom said...
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Victoria said...

Thank you all for your kind words and good wishes, and a special thank you to Bascom for the lovely prayer. Mo and I greatly appreciate everyone's kindness. She is having some rough nights, but really good days, which I am thankful for. We are just hanging in there, taking it moment by moment and hoping for the best!

Shalet said...

Snuggle up and give her all the love you have ... and remember someone has to fall in that 15% ...

Victoria Bennett Beyer said...

Little Bear and Happy and I send you and Mo lots of love and positive thoughts :)

Lynn E said...

Me and my furbabies send you hugs for you and Mo.

Bonbon Oiseau said...

so so sorry about this..I hope she comes through and sending many good thoughts and all my hope your way...